I have always believed in God. I was raised in the church and taught about God. But I never understood I could have a relationship with God. I never read the bible on my own and praying wasn't a priority for me. As an adult I quit going to church altogether, so basically I was doing nothing to strengthen my relationship with God. As the years went by my need for perfection kept growing in all areas of my life. This caused my anxiety and need for complete control in my life incredibly worse. Several years later a family member suggested a local church for us to try. I loved it! It was nothing like I had ever experienced growing up. I learned how to pray and began attending church on a regular basis. I began to understand I could have a relationship with God.
However, I still didn't read my bible though. Yet, I did read every type of self help book out there. I also didn't do much else in the church besides attend. I had stalled in my spiritual growth. My need for control and anxiety grew worse and adding two kids to my life did not help ease that stress. If you have kids you know there is NO control in how life goes. 6 years later a life altering event changed the whole world I built for myself and family. It changed everything I had ever known in my adult life. I had no control over it and could do nothing to change the circumstances. I was a complete wreck and in a very dark place. A very good friend told me you need to get into the Word and fall in love with Jesus. So I did, I began studying the bible especially on areas I was struggling in. It is the best self help book I have ever read. I started praying a lot more. Finally, I let go and just surrendered my life to God.
I realized I can not be perfect and life won't be either. I can not control everything. I have a God who wants what's best for me and has a love for me that is immeasurable. Two years later, I am happier than I have ever been, even when things are not "perfect". I continue to grow in my faith and my love of Jesus. I still have things I am working on and struggle with. But, I know I have a God who loves me and He has surrounded me with a church family who helps me and supports me when I need it.
I know God wants to use me and my story to help others find a relationship with him. If you are struggling with anything or were like me and life really wasn't that bad it just wasn't perfect or the way you thought it should be. I urge you to give it to God. His way is better. Seek Him and His guidance and wisdom. If you need a church family, I invite you to Waters Edge to be part of our family. To fall in love with Jesus, let US help and support each other on this journey.